My First 10 Minutes

Allow me to introduce myself. I'm Deborah. Thirty-Seven. Single mother of five. I'm serious, funny, obnoxious at times. I smile often.  I don't have much family and don't really have many friends. I love the sun and beach... and laughing at silly jokes. I don't hate nor do carry prejudices in my heart. My life isn't perfect but it's the one I have and the one I'd never exchange.  Although I wouldn't trade it,  I do sometimes wish I could yell misdeal because the cards on my table are unfair.  I've recently realized that God created me to be me and NOT the person this world wants me to be.  I don't have many regrets. I feel sad sometimes when I think about the future because I don't know what it holds for me. I just smile most days and say it's ok because tomorrow has to be better. I've made mistakes (some I can't take back... most I learned from) I'm new and improved, honest and sincere. Take me as I am because I am me... and that's all I can be.
Oh and one more thing... I'm a domestic violence survivor.  I look like you, act like you and when I walk down the street you would never know it.  My past, I carry it around like luggage. It's been my dirty little secret...one that I'll willingly expose in hopes to inspire at least one hurting heart. I walk, talk and breathe my life experiences. I've been told by many that I have the ability to communicate well and one day I should write a book.  This is my book.  It may never be on the best sellers list and chances are you'll never find it at Barnes and Noble, however, my book and all its pages, no matter how torn and tattered, hold a message.  A message not only filled with heartache, tears and misery but also of hope, courage and perseverance. I hope my words and the story they tell will take your hand and guide you to the life that you know you were created to live.  A life filled with peace, contentment and love.
Through all my trials and tribulations one thing I've learned about life... No matter how many times you're knocked down, you always have the ability to stand back up and walk forward... I'm living proof.